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This place is the bomb.

bbs groomin

$400 later...

Hello new phone.

Omg hailll yeahh

Alice in wonderland 3d xd !

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Is it just me?

I have gone on several dates, hung out with several guys &im just reallyyy not interested. I haven't &dont even want to kiss them goodnight or any reason for that matter. This guy, for example, talks funny, is too short for my liking, ex gf drama, has what I like to call simpson teeth etc etc etc. I really nice guy that I should be really into that Vy introduced me to, same way. Initially, I was attracted to my past 2 exs bc of sex dreams. Those dreams left such a strong hold over me that I just had to have what I wanted when I wanted it &i succeeded both times. I ended up falling in love with both guys, really. I am oddly attracted to random guys for whatever reason but I grow to really truly love them &thats all that matters. Ultimately, though, with Sean, he was just "not on my level". Which was another thing that attracted me to Augie. I always kind of held him in the back of my
mind ever since we dated back when we were 16 I guess bc deep down I knew he was a good guy &maybe one day wed have another go round &take care of unfinished business. Kind of like Sean too I guess. But with Augie, I felt he had everything I wanted that Sean didn't. And it turns out that Sean had things that I wanted that Augie doesn't either. If I could take Augies drive &dedication &maturity &level-headedness &mash it up with Seans love &passion &adventurousness I'd have the perfect boyfriend. So anyway, in the long run, things didn't work out with either of them. Augie was "on my level" as I am a homeowner &a career oriented kind of woman &i was strangely very attracted to him as I seem to be with men most of the time but he just has no heart. That's the best way I can put it. From working @together dating service, I have learned it takes 3 basic things to make for perfect
conditions: attraction, chemistry &compatibility. I have yet to find all 3. Augie &i's cup runneth over in the physical department. Oh man is the compatibilty there but I'm afraid that's all its ever been bc I have a tendancy to have the sex drive of a teenage boy in puberty. So, in principle, this guy Steve I met through Vy should be the man of my dreams. He seems to have everything I was looking for when I left Sean. Great government job for like the secret service or something crazy, outstanding income, very very good looking, tallll, slim, such a little gentlemen, in the air force, very respecftul &polite, we hit it off great, very compatible etc etc. So, in text, he sounds like everything I've wanted &then some. Very attractive. SO THEN WHY AM I NOT ATTRACTED TO HIM?! I am going to give it some time, we've got a sushi date this weekend so I'm not calling it quits. But just like I
was saying earlier, I pick these guys apart! Regardless of the long long list of pros, I always find the cons more swaying on my judgement. He hangs with the azns so he has a tendency to txt like one. He could be a little more up in the fashion dept although he always looks nice &i used to call Augie a fag for that exact same thing, he's tall &handsome but not dark like I like em, he has the whole ~rosey cheeks goin, which if you knew me you'd understand, etc etc etc. Idk. I guess its really to early to say but I am not really all that stoked for our date, or any others I've really been on for that matter like I would be if it were Augie but I guess well see...

The oink oink quesadilla

Pulled pork, bacon, cheddar cheese &onion served in a tortilla with sour cream &salsa. Omg collins gonna have a heart attack &kill us both on the way home.

So blogworthy.

I love these milkshakes &i love paper moon.

Haha omg

This is what's happening right now.

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This baby

Is the sweetest boy ever.

Dodgeball.

Omg alex. He thinks he's real funny.

love love love my new polish!

She she's such a qt

Ahhh I love my job

Aa best bottom contest, here I come!

2010 Theme Song

There are many people I know that need to hear this &should be in ths frame of mind more than us. But really, everyone should live their lives this way:


Sometimes we fall down &can't get back up. We're hiding behind skin that's too tough. How come we don't say I love you enough till it's to late? It's not too late.

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come. But we could make a feast from these crumbs. And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun, so if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done?

Gotta start lookin at the hands of the time we've been given here. This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it. Every second counts on a clock that's tickin; Gotta live like we're dying.

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day to turn it all around or throw it all away. We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say; Gotta live like we're dying.

But if your plane fell out of the skies, who would you call with your last goodbyes? Should be so careful who we live out our lives so when we long for absolution, there'll be no one on the line.

We never know a good thing till it's gone. You never see a crash until it's head on. All those people right when we're dead wrong. You never know a good thing till it's gone.

I can home to a wayy worse ceiling

My roof is gonna cave in &im gonna die I just know it :(

Valentine

After:

We are women, hear us roar. Sooo proud.

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Before:

Sheelie is making me help her assemble her dresser &im turning into my father &sticking my tongue out &cursing while working.

I'm waiting for this test to end,

so these lighter days can soon begin. I'll be alone but maybe more carefree, like a kite that floats so effortlessly. I was afraid to be alone, now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be. All these faces, none the same. How can there be so many personalities? So many lifeless empty hands, so many hearts in great demand. And now, my sorrow seems so far away until I'm taken by these bolts of pain. But I turn them off and tuck them away 'till these rainy days that make them stay &then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs. And the words still ring, once here, now gone &they echo through my head everyday &I dont think they'll ever go away. Just like thinking of your childhood home but we cant go back, we're on our own.

I'm about to give this one more shot &find it in myself. I'll find it in myself.

So were speeding towards that time of year, to the day that marks that you're not here, &i think I'll want to be alone. So please understand if I dont answer the phone. I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls until I can see nothing at all, only particles some fast, some slow.All my eyes can see is all I know.

But I'm about to give this one more shot &find it in myself. I'll find it in myself.

Lol @this bumper sticker

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Go ahead.

Lie to me, you could say anything. Small talk will be just fine, your voice is everything. We owe it to love &it all depends on you.

So listen up, this sun hasn't set. I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling. Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet.

So how do I do normal? A smile I fake, the permanent wave of cue-cards and fix-it kits. Can't you tell? I'm not myself.

I'm a slow motion accident lost in coffee rings and fingerprints. I don't wanna feel anything, but I do, &it all comes back to you.

So listen up. Look at me straight. Just hear me out. Don't make me wait. I'm not myself. I can't take this. Love's on the line, is that your final answer?

Can't wait to make these!

Hell has officially frozen over

Winter Iwanttodieland.

Stuck in my head all day.

You called to say you wanted out. Well, I can't say I blame you now. Sometimes you've got to fold before you're found out. Well, thanks for waiting this long to show yourself, cause now that I can see you, I don't think you're worth a second glance. So much for all the promises you made, they served you well and now you're gone and they're wasted on me. So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well and now it's gone and you're wasted on me. I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get, so much for so much more. Do what you must if that's what you wish, I can't be a party to this, you have a sense that you were born with. You'll find a way to make things right.

More snow means...

No work, comfy aa tanks, hk slippers, blankie, fav pillow, my kit10s, hot cocoa &nonstop reading. Sookie stackhouse is my new fictional role model. This is not so bad after all.