I get so distracted

by some peoples reactions that I don't see my own faults for what they are. For what they are.

At times so self destructive with no intent or motive but, behind this emotion, there lies a sensible heart. A sensible heart.

See, I'm no king.I wear no crown but, desperate times seem over now but, still I weaken somehow. It tears me apart. It tears me apart.

I hope to learn as time goes by that I should trust what's deep inside burning bright, oh burning bright. My sensible heart. My sensible heart.

I am sick with wanting

&it's evil and it's daunting how I let everything I cherish lay to waste. I am lost in greed, this time it's definately me. I point fingers but there's no one there to blame.

I need for something. No, let me break it down again. I need for something but not more medicine.

I am sick with wanting &it's evil how it's got me &everyday is worse than the one before. The more I have the more I think: I'm almost where I need to be, if only I could get a little more.

Something has me, oh something has me, acting like someone I don't wanna be.
Something has me, oh something has me, acting like someone I know isn't me.
Ill with want and poisoned by this ugly greed.

Temporary is my time. Ain't nothin on this world that's mine, except the will I found to carry on. Free is not your right to choose, it's answering what's asked of you; to give the love you find until it's gone.

Ill with want and poisoned by this ugly greed.

The Perfect Space

I wanna have friends that I can trust, that love me for the woman I’ve become, not the woman I was.
I wanna have friends that will let me be all alone when being alone is all that I need.
I wanna fit in to the perfect space, feel natural and safe in a volatile place.
I wanna grow old without the pain, give my body back to the earth and not complain.
Will you understand when I am too old of a woman?
Will you forget when we have paid our debt who did we borrow from?

Okay part two now clear the house.
The party’s over take the shouting and the people, get out.
I have some business and a promise that I have to hold to.
I do not care what you assume or what the people told you.
Will you understand, when I am too old of a woman?
Will you forget when we have paid our debts, who did we borrow from, who did borrow from?

I wanna have pride like my mother has &not like the kind in the bible that turns you bad.
I wanna have friends that I can trust, that love me for the woman I’ve become and not the woman that I was.

Really didn't think i was gonna make it.

Really didn't think I was gonna make it this way. Put on my robot face, had my emotions way far away from me. Oh you really saw my naked heart, you really brought out the naked part. I don’t know what you were doing, I know I just want to thank you for thinking of me.

I want to take you for all that you are, although our worlds seem far apart. I want to see you for all that you do. I want to thank you.

It was strange and it was soothing &you could even say amusing, the way it came to me. You devised a simple plan that would change the fate of man, you thought of everything. Oh you really saw my naked heart, you really brought out the naked part. I don’t know what you were doing, I know I just want to thank you for thinking of me.

I want to take you for all that you are, although our worlds seem far apart. I want to see you for all that you do
I want to thank you.

I love you <3

2010 Theme Song

There are many people I know that need to hear this &should be in ths frame of mind more than us. But really, everyone should live their lives this way:


Sometimes we fall down &can't get back up. We're hiding behind skin that's too tough. How come we don't say I love you enough till it's to late? It's not too late.

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come. But we could make a feast from these crumbs. And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun, so if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done?

Gotta start lookin at the hands of the time we've been given here. This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it. Every second counts on a clock that's tickin; Gotta live like we're dying.

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day to turn it all around or throw it all away. We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say; Gotta live like we're dying.

But if your plane fell out of the skies, who would you call with your last goodbyes? Should be so careful who we live out our lives so when we long for absolution, there'll be no one on the line.

We never know a good thing till it's gone. You never see a crash until it's head on. All those people right when we're dead wrong. You never know a good thing till it's gone.