Is it just me?

I have gone on several dates, hung out with several guys &im just reallyyy not interested. I haven't &dont even want to kiss them goodnight or any reason for that matter. This guy, for example, talks funny, is too short for my liking, ex gf drama, has what I like to call simpson teeth etc etc etc. I really nice guy that I should be really into that Vy introduced me to, same way. Initially, I was attracted to my past 2 exs bc of sex dreams. Those dreams left such a strong hold over me that I just had to have what I wanted when I wanted it &i succeeded both times. I ended up falling in love with both guys, really. I am oddly attracted to random guys for whatever reason but I grow to really truly love them &thats all that matters. Ultimately, though, with Sean, he was just "not on my level". Which was another thing that attracted me to Augie. I always kind of held him in the back of my
mind ever since we dated back when we were 16 I guess bc deep down I knew he was a good guy &maybe one day wed have another go round &take care of unfinished business. Kind of like Sean too I guess. But with Augie, I felt he had everything I wanted that Sean didn't. And it turns out that Sean had things that I wanted that Augie doesn't either. If I could take Augies drive &dedication &maturity &level-headedness &mash it up with Seans love &passion &adventurousness I'd have the perfect boyfriend. So anyway, in the long run, things didn't work out with either of them. Augie was "on my level" as I am a homeowner &a career oriented kind of woman &i was strangely very attracted to him as I seem to be with men most of the time but he just has no heart. That's the best way I can put it. From working @together dating service, I have learned it takes 3 basic things to make for perfect
conditions: attraction, chemistry &compatibility. I have yet to find all 3. Augie &i's cup runneth over in the physical department. Oh man is the compatibilty there but I'm afraid that's all its ever been bc I have a tendancy to have the sex drive of a teenage boy in puberty. So, in principle, this guy Steve I met through Vy should be the man of my dreams. He seems to have everything I was looking for when I left Sean. Great government job for like the secret service or something crazy, outstanding income, very very good looking, tallll, slim, such a little gentlemen, in the air force, very respecftul &polite, we hit it off great, very compatible etc etc. So, in text, he sounds like everything I've wanted &then some. Very attractive. SO THEN WHY AM I NOT ATTRACTED TO HIM?! I am going to give it some time, we've got a sushi date this weekend so I'm not calling it quits. But just like I
was saying earlier, I pick these guys apart! Regardless of the long long list of pros, I always find the cons more swaying on my judgement. He hangs with the azns so he has a tendency to txt like one. He could be a little more up in the fashion dept although he always looks nice &i used to call Augie a fag for that exact same thing, he's tall &handsome but not dark like I like em, he has the whole ~rosey cheeks goin, which if you knew me you'd understand, etc etc etc. Idk. I guess its really to early to say but I am not really all that stoked for our date, or any others I've really been on for that matter like I would be if it were Augie but I guess well see...